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Mind Our Words Our words has lots of power it's like we are putting a spell on others. We are Harry Potter 😅🤭🤣 our word and thoughts when it match it give out energy and energy doesn't lie. Have u ever notice yourself when you speak about someone else with the sentence beginning with: I THINK & I FEEL Two of this words had so much power in them. I Think: it's coming from The Mind and Beliefs System. Beliefs that we hold on to dearly and when some people words trigger our beliefs system our mind will get provoke to defend itself. Why does The Mind defend itself ? Was the words truth and The Mind got scared ? Why did it get scared ? What is the Reason of protecting itself ? When the person didn't even touch the person and neither attack the person. Then why did The Mind react that way 🤔 😏 ? Oh Mind are you scared I am going to reveal all your sceam 😆😅 Don't worry I Love you still cause you are teaching me alot and to make other see within thems...

Desire  Are label bad in Religion, We all have 3 Desire: Mind, Body and Soul If we learn to Balance the Desire wouldn't it be better then Judging others on they desire. Master in self Desire First then Teach others or Control others.  Your Desire is your responsibility not someone else.  To fulfilled one desire one must be honest with the person you are going to take it from or use them for self indulge for all our action have consequence  🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠 Mind Desire: Endless Desire both good & bad ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨ Our Responsibility to Mind Desire: Discipline with Self-Love toward bad and good side, learn the Emotions we get from our Body signal base on Mind desire.  🧘🏼‍♀️🧘🏽‍♂️🧘🏼‍♀️🧘🏽‍♂️🧘🏼‍♀️🧘🏽‍♂️🧘🏼‍♀️🧘🏽‍♂️🧘🏼‍♀️🧘🏽‍♂️🧘🏼‍♀️🧘🏽‍♂️🧘🏼‍♀️🧘🏽‍♂️ Body Desire: Endless  ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨ Our Responsibility to Body Desire:  1. What we eat 🙈🫣😅🤣 = We would have desire to Poop out the food we eat.  2. What we drink = ...

Are u Wind or Rain ? When the fire 🔥 start somewhere we human can either be a wind 🌬 or a rain🌧  When Wind blow from fire 🔥 area toward forest full of life it carry the fire along with it and burn all area. Without wind the fire 🔥 die down within that area or with the help of rain 🌧 it doesn't continues.  We can learn alot from this nature teaching.  Winds are like gossip that we spread creating fire 🔥 where ever it goes.  Rain is like caring and love that will stop the fire from spreading.  Choose wisely 😌 to be a wind 🌬 or the rain🌧.

I was beautiful at first complete, then I started to lose myself along the way then I create an imaginary friend to help me find the missing pieces I found then and slowly it got fix.  Time passed by I forgot my imaginary friends I didn't needed them for it was time to become adult, adult life is too serious 🙃 I like cartoon still that too many make fun, I ignore but the voice inside keep reminding me I don't allow the voice inside me to hurt anyone cause the pain is so much. Voice inside me love to create drama and sometime I feel am being bullied 😔 by me 😮‍💨🤷‍♀️😵‍💫 how weird is that 😐. Fear then became my friends, I started to keep weird friends and those friends stole some of me then I lost myself again it was a big mess 💔 I couldn't handle myself but had too. Then I ask help from higher source I started taking myself apart to fix myself so many things in me that I didn't like, some thing I took it in cause many think it would be good for me but ...

I was lost in my own heart and mind. When you came along into my life. You had no name nor want to be attach all you ever wanted was to find yourself in someone's else I could be wrong.  When we started to interact about manything I felt good in my heart ❤️ For you completed what was missing in me healthy conversation that I never got. Even though some of the topic that interested you I have move past those topics for it only created lot of distraction and down fall for me. Every night 🌙 I looked forward for your text hoping it will fulfill the emptiness in me. Our conversation was always decent full of light ✨️ and love 😂🤭. Love of conversation 💕  Am grateful 🙏 for coming into my life and appreciate our friendship conversation 💖✨️. 

Living with people who constantly complain, nagging, shaming, ordering in the name of family. I sometimes wish I was stranger for stranger are treated with kindness but with family more like abuse.  I want to escape from this surrounding. Am always on guard for attack can happen any second, minute or hours. Words are like knife 🔪 I was already dead 2yrs back even though now am strong but still need to stand guard cause of surroundings.  I want to be mentally strong that family or others people words doesn't even have power over me. Divine ✨️💖I realize being in body consciousness there is no safe space I love being innocent but this surrounding doesn't allow me to be me. 

Death We all know the truth cause of dead be off by disease, suicide, accident, wrong injection, irresponsible doctor and killing with intention or not intention.  The pain arise when we experience from losing our love one's to death. But once we experience death within family some awaken that very moment and see the truth of human cycle of life. When other death comes it's become normal for them attachment is not there, but keep good memories of they love ones and see the truth again that we could go any time Questions within arise should I live in codependent life or live independently but share love with all.  Death is something we shouldn't fear and it shouldn't provoke our anger. Yes one might say but those innocent die for no reason at all there is deeper secret of karma in this journey and death is a lesson that many need to learn.  Lesson in the death is to live in the moment enjoy with each other in ever awaken moment but when it's time to go to sleep see t...

The Truth About Mind 🧠 I could see that 5 element are free for us but THE MIND in Human have come up with ideas from that idea money was created then we have been hypnotize by money makers that we cant survive without money, the truth is we can it only take us to be independent, but am also so glad that many who stay in matrix but shining they light for many to see the truth not about money but about other stuff that leads to money again and again.  🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠 Sad truth is The Mind of Human Enslave another Human Mind (Freedom is not really there) We allow Government to take charge We allow Money to become our Master We allow Law to control us But we also have power over them and they also know this so they created lots of Distraction to keep us all asleep by entertain us like how adult distract children when children is acting out: Movies Toys News Games Music Activities But I am also seeing lots of positivity in them too but the side effect of nega...

My Crush is like a ride on the Bus I was ready and excited to sit at bus stop cause I would get to meet my crush and when I sat on the bus there he is sitting with his headphones 🎧 I just walk up to him and confess, we had a good conversation it was the best ride on the bus. Next day I get excited again I get to experience new experiences with a blush and excited to hear what my crush would say all I got was one line 😅 then I the excitement faded cause crush wasn't interested 😅 I don't feel excited to sit on bus so I stop going then come only when I want to share my own story of excitement 😅 then disappear for days then when I was on my own routine bus they he visited me on the bus in my route I got excited but then crush had to get off quickly 😮‍💨 then I realized I was chasing 😅 crush which wasn't even love one-sided 😅 only. When time when by I learn lesson but didn't chase anymore and one day had to visit someone in that route so sat on the same bu...

 Fear My first fear was being around stranger asking for my hand in marriage I was confronted by blind man asking me to marry him at my father Guest House hotel. When I told my dad he acted so cool and chill like nothing has happened. The fear build up in my mind Second fear was when I got lock up in toilet by maid she was annoyed with us about something which I don't recall being a very small at that time. I didn't know what happen but my heart told me the next door have spray something in the draining system that made 100 of cockroach come out from draining system into the toilet I was locked in the fear build up in my mind. That night I slept with one eye open cause of fearing the cockroach will come back.  There was many more fear I face that I didn't response to it but suppress all those fear in my mind.  Fear of darkness Fear of cockroach Fear of stranger Fear of failing in class Fear of embarrassing my family Fear of being my true self Fear of speaking up for mysel...

Sitting in the Cafe with family but feel the emptiness within as son enjoy his meal and father talk about food my mind wonder in the dream land where they is blissful peace and son is also in the dream land with me my attention is on him but not father for he isn't in the dream land with me. His energy is full of dark clouds so to be allowed in dream land of my mind I have to divine ✨️ guard 💂‍♂️ stand around me with divine ✨️ ♥️ of protection ✨️ incase of attack happen. The emptiness happens when don't have anyone to share my dreams with except with divine ✨️ and keep on alert at all time. Sometimes it definitely get tired to be on guard 💂‍♀️ 24/7.  Dreamland is definitely very safe and full of silence. Speak only when it's necessary. 

The way you shower ur love  At first I didn't know what it was Slowly the love u give and share it was something new to me I love to share love from beginning 💕 but also fear to show my full self  For wanting divine work to be done. Daily seeing your chat corner I want to share my life with you ❤️ 💕  The more I share the more I seem to feel comfortable near you. My heart feel calm and also same time to tease you. But I stop myself for I want it to go easy on myself with no expectations cause many past wound has been lesson wouldn't want to repeat them. I like your company for it bring out the child in me I can be myself more with you but not yet fully. Slow and steady is better then fast and furious 😏🥰 for I would definitely want this love connection to grow healthy, strong and stable.  Be patience with me for when I have share fully of myself to you and no expectations ✨️ then I would definitely know for sure this is all worth of all the effort i ask divine to g...

Touch me with grace Touch me with gentleness  Touch me softly Handle me carefully  Handle me with compassion  Make love to me  With ur soul, mind and body ✨️  Awaken all my senses with ur Touch  Awaken divine in me with ur divine ✨️ in you 

My love for you is true but fear comes in from being too attach to you. I slowly fade away hoping it would be easy on you I try my best not to think of you and slowly your memory was like a flower ✨️ that once was in my garden but now your seed took a flight to take root somewhere else.. my love for you is still strong even though we hardly talk. You are like a sweet memory that I want to admire from far hoping ✨️ 💕 you would fine someone much better then me. 😊  sending the blessing of love ❤️ to you my dearest love if you do get to read this then you 💕 know. You were the love like a movie that will never end in my thoughts but now it's time for the movie to end cause you starting the new journey with a new story of love of your own. 

Without You Your mom wouldn't smile or try to make u laugh, your dad wouldn't get to hold you and give u a gentle kiss on forehead, your family wouldn't celebrate your birthday seeing everything should be perfect just for you, you wouldn't get to go to school and make new friends, family wouldn't scold you cause they worry too much just want to make u happy by being strict with you, they wouldn't buy you new clothes to wear or learn to cook ur favorite meal, take u to park or visit place there would never ever visit alone and most of all they wouldn't leave everything just to think of you 24/7 You were put here on earth for a reason

Got wisdom lesson when washing dishes  Tea stain that got stuck on plastic material, ceramic cup and glass cup all needed hard scrub to take off the stain but what about the stain in our body with those tea many drink daily without thinking 🤔 definitely the colon is full of stain of tea in them many think colon is not clean cause of other stuff what about when we clog our draining pipe same goes for our colon everyone eat time a day not giving stomach rest to work on other part of the body keep on disgusting its like we keep the blunder on 24/7 and keep adding food into that blunder that's how our body get heat up without mindfulness.

Improve ourselves  When we keep improving ourselves for better we raise our standards higher too without knowing. People we meet when some quality in them doesn't fit with our habits or principles we don't feel like hangout with them. Our standards keep improving and nobody can catch up so we come to a stage that all are in different levels of improvement of the person capabilities so we all end up alone in our own levels. Is good to improve ourselves and help those who aren't yet at our levels with our understanding, accepting and kindness ✨️ with our determination ✨️ of help those to reach they level of capacity but not be attach to glory of what we did. Be a light house to all those who have lost they way ✨️ and we would never feel alone. ✨️

Everything inside of me was lively it love Everything then someone say silent it slowly inside me build up a wall 🧱 when anything small excite me someone say silent it then build up another wall 🧱 again and again it get excited again and again someone don't like what I am again I build a wall I was trap inside the wall that now I could hear the wall talking back at me with so much pain I wanted it to stop but the wall 🧱 voice was so loud I fall down and cry then one day the wall whisper saying nobody love you I cried I didn't want to end my life but wall said do it do it do it many more abuse words I wasn't good enough nobody love you alot more then before I listen I cry out for help to divine 💫 He whisper softly and sweetly what do you want I said love ❤️ you got so much love in you why don't u give love to yourself with the help of divine ❤️ the wall fall down and old me die.  New me born with lots of old walls brick I use them to climbs up to make me stronger 💪 ...

Attachment is the cause of all pain When I hold on to title When I hold on to the role I play When I hold on the things I do When I hold on to the name I give myself  When I hold on the deed I did When I hold on to identity  When I hold on to the pride When I hold on to the knowledge  When I hold on to love ones When I hold on material possession  When I hold on to this body When I hold on to religion  When I hold on to groups  When I hold on to approval  While you holding on to these many will come to disturb your attachment to them that will trigger your Ego then pain start to build up inside unknowingly, if this happen check yourself what is it that I am holding on too, is it causing my heart to ache and why am I not letting go of it. When we go (die) we leave this body we take nothing that we hold on too. So why not practice now daily and when times come for the end all our attention only goes to the inner peace and love nothing else matter.

 Are you counting In Giving Love Giving Hug Giving Kisses Giving money Giving comfort Giving food Giving gifts Giving joy If you are counting in the name of Love Don't Give  Before Give Tell your expectation.

Having fun online with friends  Chating with laughter When for a drive  Did many thing in hurry which wasn't me but for others they love hurry Reach home  Had a good talk on call Nap time Walk abit cook abit Wash  Chat with lots of love and laughter  Then when being ignored feel empty  Sadness visited  Being alone since morning felt nothing no attachment but it slowly did  Tomz is new day try again This Time don't chat with anyone Best to protect urself  Check who want u and who don't  But dont be attach again God why so many rules about attachment  Attachment cause pain Am attach to you but I don't feel pain from u U detach from me that's why u feel pain

Without your opinion I wouldn't learn To be better version of myself by seeing your behavior,  thankyou for showing your true self  Thankyou for not being kind with ur words - so I dont take it personally 🙂 Thankyou for telling me ur belief system - so I dont adopt it  Thankyou for showing me what bother you - so I shouldn't disturb when something bother me 😌 Thankyou for your opinion - I learn to not copy you. 🙂 

Don't look If my hair bother you don't look I love my hair just the way it is  They rely: don't love yourself too much So what u saying I should cover my hair just so it doesn't bother you and pleases you. If I don't love myself now when should I love myself when dead come knocking.  Don't response to people who are bother by your looks just keep quite and don't exchange your energy or give them the satisfaction of your reactions.  I rather be alone then to be in such a crowd.

The Greatest things to Learn Now: 1. I allow myself to have emotions feeling. 2. I accept myself the way I am 3. I observe what trigger my feelings. 4. I allow myself to set boundaries 😌  5. I am honest with myself. 6. Making mistake is lesson for me. 7. It is OK to feel sad, also decide how long I want to feel sad. 8. I give attention to my anger what cause it and learn from it.  9. I treat everyone the way I want to be treated. 10. I will not lower my standards by copy they behaviour and still hold on to my inner peace. 11. My mind, soul and body is my responsibility and no one else. 12. Nobody can change my mood 😌 its my own doing what I allow within my mind.  13. I am the master of my mind not anyone else.  14. I add filter in my ears 👂 so I hear only good things that will benefit me in the future.  15. I will not criticise myself for the sake of others words.  16. I love ❤ my mind, body, soul and feelings.  17. I listen to my feelings quietly a...

When will it stop this desire that never fulfil How can one move forward and never having pain 💔 cause of thus desire Desire aren't good if it was why does it also cause pain Disconnect is the only way out from pain Love is a state of mind but need to forget physical love Living amongst such desire seeing also cause pain Having eye does give pain Having ear does give pain Having heart does give pain Having this body does experience pain Not have it at l would be so much better so much pain  I feel only pain  All I know is pain  Physical pain was building inner strength  But heart pain what was it building Mental pain was building strong mental state Love pain was building inner 

Will shouting help to heal someone Will scolding help to heal the sick Will angry help sick person get better Is that how you want to have your last conversation with the one you love If a Child get sick would scolding make it all better. If death comes without knocking your last talk was only scolding your love one.  How would you be feeling ? Worry is not love Love is always kind Love is always speaking with compassionate  Love is just speaking softly  If love is to shout If love is to scold If love is to boss around If love is to control other  If love is to give fear If love is to not trust If love is to putting your love one down If love is to show who is write  Then this love isn't love at all Then why love at all  Why waste your energy for such love

 what cause the pain and heard my own thoughts saying all the bad things to me like "you aren’t good enough, nobody love you, they don't care about ur feelings etc" some are very toxic negative talk so I felt like ending the voice in my head but I couldn't do it cause I still love some part of me then I ask for help from divine which I thought was outside but slowly I started to feel divine was within me talking so sweetly to me and very kind also loving ❤️. I want to hear more his voice so I ask for guidance then I when for vipassana meditation then practice mindfulness, divine kept pulling me to divine grace 💫💖 in so many way like books, bible study, Joel osteen words, then I ask divine that I don't want to depend on media, books or talker to lift myself up is there a way I can lift myself out of my own created hell within my mind with divine grace again found place they taught meditation to connect with divine ✨️ but then slowly I found out I was already doin...

Today is ur birth day and also the day your mother gave birth to you, She carried you for 9month she had to go throw nausea, vomits and sickness from many things she couldn't eat. She had to take care of you and herself at the same time. But the moment you were born she stop taking care of herself and thinking you were the most important person in the world so she took care of everything as well you since you were the Most Important person in her world, she saw joy and unconditional love in your eyes, ur smile and laughter. When she was tired just seeing your smile and laughter she felt her pain disappear you were her deepest joy.  This day should be the day for her 😌 not self but just for her. Without her you wouldn't be here to begin with give her hugs and kisses forget the shyness she carried you when u cried at night, she comfort you when u had bad dreams now is the time to see 👀 throw her eyes with this knowledge ✨️ of divine ✨️ give her love just the way sh...

Suffocating from too much love Parent love are good but when it become too much with attachment, no trust, no compassion in it, it definitely become Suffocating love. Getting sick one should be given love, comfort, understanding and care. but once it turn into worry and fear take roots in one's mind send out that energy to love one they don't think of consequences of the effect their are giving out.  was coughing lots after had a good laugh with son so one get scolding for just coughing getting long lecture of not taking care of the child sitting next to you, one does get effect by such energy. but also got to learn that never ever share ur sickness with anyone and take care of oneself in such a way that never show signs of sickness ever if did will definitely get scolding for getting sick. having covid thought that would make love see dead is just around the corner one must learn to be gentle, kind, caring, loving and compassionate but no it turn into battlefield ...

Covid this small little bacteria has cause fear to the world and every individual. Mask as become part of life fear of death when many believing there are immortal when the true fact is dead is part of life. Why fear change when leaf 🍃 is born, change color and detach from tree. The new cycle begin leaf still keep on coming unless the environment doesn't create welcoming energy ✨️ or environment is toxic the will leaf will blooms when it's know it can breath again and it continues to play its roles.  But we human over think things but never really enjoy it. We human create our own hell with the  Power of belief Power of fear Power of words Power of doubts  Power of negative thinking What u give Power to create your world 🌎 if we give power to faith our world is transform. Two people can be living in the same home if both have different view to life both can be living in two different dimension of life and two different world. 

A call again with Opinions  A call again with Opinions  When will the Opinions stop Opinions keep coming from all directions  Opinions with filling of assumptions  of judgment  of doubt of no trust of fear of resentment  of pain to kill Kill me now with just one Opinions  When will it stop  When will it start When will it love  Why is Opinions of love give feeling of pain Opinions of love give feeling of judgment  Opinions of love give feeling of mistrust  Opinions of love give heart to become like Stone. Divine filter ✨️ all those Opinions with your unconditional love ❤️  Human Opinions are not gentle  Human Opinions are painful 💔  Human Opinions are like knife 🔪  Human Opinions are full of doubts I will vanish away one day and You will have to face your own Opinions that give others pain. You have to face them one day your deepest fear You have to face it just like I did but I choose to be gentle with myself...

Love is not in the show piece Love is not in having more space Love is not in having beautiful home Love is not in following orders Love is not in having many clothes Love is not having lots of money Love is not who is right or wrong Love is not in complaining  Love is not in asking other make ur life easy. Love is understanding  Love is accepting Love is openness  Love is ok to have less space Love is adjusting  Love is freedom Love is respecting others Love is unlimited  Love is having no condition 

In the darkness of night it visit again Wilderness dream going out into nature under the moonlight ✨️ 💫🌙🌌🌠 camping 🏕 in the woods listening to nature music being one with the wolf 🐺 howling into the night. Camp fire 🔥 😍 flirt with fire 🔥 😍 burning 🔥 me away with desire of the unknown. 

Men are like Rose 🌹  Women are like Lotus 💮 Men have to go through hardship of thorns before become a Rose Women have to go through dirt before become a Lotus  both beautiful in its own way can't compare.

Today Sadness visited 😞  Feeling all alone with the house full of people,  Happiness is within when doing something productive, When giving myself a break sadness comes, Go online to help guide I feel happy to help, When get too tired from texting take a break, Sadness visit again now got no where to hide, Sadness is sitting infront of me asking why don't u want to feel me. Me: I don't want to cry Sadness: You will feel better, you suppress alot of pain 💔  Me: when I cry my nose get block Sadness: how about we read books together ❤  Me: will u speak something to make me cry. Sadness: I can't promise u that  Me: Then u better not come near me Sadness is bring Anger now Me: I call divine ✨ 💫💖 help me remove this Sadness Anger ran away saw divine light ✨ 💫💖 Sadness is sitting and looking at me Me: smiling back to Sadness and not reacting.

Hurt Like a knife 🔪 stab into the heart Like a hammer 🔨 pounding the heart open Like arrow 🏹 throwing non-stop into the heart ❤  But this heart ❤ is so strong but its sad inside 💔 😢 😔  Heart is practicing for all the stone to be thrown at, and this wonderful heart never stop to build stronger protection.  Heart feel sad 😔 for many keep attacking 💔 non-stop when this heart never attack any heart ❤ only up lift those.  Am ready for this heart to be so big that who ever see it will not dare to come near with wrong intentions.