voice in my head

 what cause the pain and heard my own thoughts saying all the bad things to me like "you aren’t good enough, nobody love you, they don't care about ur feelings etc" some are very toxic negative talk so I felt like ending the voice in my head but I couldn't do it cause I still love some part of me then I ask for help from divine which I thought was outside but slowly I started to feel divine was within me talking so sweetly to me and very kind also loving ❤️. I want to hear more his voice so I ask for guidance then I when for vipassana meditation then practice mindfulness, divine kept pulling me to divine grace 💫💖 in so many way like books, bible study, Joel osteen words, then I ask divine that I don't want to depend on media, books or talker to lift myself up is there a way I can lift myself out of my own created hell within my mind with divine grace again found place they taught meditation to connect with divine ✨️

but then slowly I found out I was already doing this when I was in my teens then how come so long process and come to the same starting point but then I could hear divine sweet within me so strong that I couldn't unhear it anymore he is so kind and gentle that i felt divine was in me all along 💖 not outside not out of galaxy but within all I needed to do was listen to sweet voice within me rather the negative self-talk voice which was hurting me.