Heart Growing

I was lost in my own heart and mind. When you came along into my life. You had no name nor want to be attach all you ever wanted was to find yourself in someone's else I could be wrong.  When we started to interact about manything I felt good in my heart ❤️ For you completed what was missing in me healthy conversation that I never got. Even though some of the topic that interested you I have move past those topics for it only created lot of distraction and down fall for me. Every night 🌙 I looked forward for your text hoping it will fulfill the emptiness in me. Our conversation was always decent full of light ✨️ and love 😂🤭. Love of conversation 💕  Am grateful 🙏 for coming into my life and appreciate our friendship conversation 💖✨️. 

Living with people who constantly complain, nagging, shaming, ordering in the name of family. I sometimes wish I was stranger for stranger are treated with kindness but with family more like abuse.  I want to escape from this surrounding. Am always on guard for attack can happen any second, minute or hours. Words are like knife 🔪 I was already dead 2yrs back even though now am strong but still need to stand guard cause of surroundings.  I want to be mentally strong that family or others people words doesn't even have power over me. Divine ✨️💖I realize being in body consciousness there is no safe space I love being innocent but this surrounding doesn't allow me to be me. 

Death We all know the truth cause of dead be off by disease, suicide, accident, wrong injection, irresponsible doctor and killing with intention or not intention.  The pain arise when we experience from losing our love one's to death. But once we experience death within family some awaken that very moment and see the truth of human cycle of life. When other death comes it's become normal for them attachment is not there, but keep good memories of they love ones and see the truth again that we could go any time Questions within arise should I live in codependent life or live independently but share love with all.  Death is something we shouldn't fear and it shouldn't provoke our anger. Yes one might say but those innocent die for no reason at all there is deeper secret of karma in this journey and death is a lesson that many need to learn.  Lesson in the death is to live in the moment enjoy with each other in ever awaken moment but when it's time to go to sleep see t...

The Truth About Mind 🧠 I could see that 5 element are free for us but THE MIND in Human have come up with ideas from that idea money was created then we have been hypnotize by money makers that we cant survive without money, the truth is we can it only take us to be independent, but am also so glad that many who stay in matrix but shining they light for many to see the truth not about money but about other stuff that leads to money again and again.  🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠 Sad truth is The Mind of Human Enslave another Human Mind (Freedom is not really there) We allow Government to take charge We allow Money to become our Master We allow Law to control us But we also have power over them and they also know this so they created lots of Distraction to keep us all asleep by entertain us like how adult distract children when children is acting out: Movies Toys News Games Music Activities But I am also seeing lots of positivity in them too but the side effect of nega...

My Crush is like a ride on the Bus I was ready and excited to sit at bus stop cause I would get to meet my crush and when I sat on the bus there he is sitting with his headphones 🎧 I just walk up to him and confess, we had a good conversation it was the best ride on the bus. Next day I get excited again I get to experience new experiences with a blush and excited to hear what my crush would say all I got was one line 😅 then I the excitement faded cause crush wasn't interested 😅 I don't feel excited to sit on bus so I stop going then come only when I want to share my own story of excitement 😅 then disappear for days then when I was on my own routine bus they he visited me on the bus in my route I got excited but then crush had to get off quickly 😮‍💨 then I realized I was chasing 😅 crush which wasn't even love one-sided 😅 only. When time when by I learn lesson but didn't chase anymore and one day had to visit someone in that route so sat on the same bu...

 Fear My first fear was being around stranger asking for my hand in marriage I was confronted by blind man asking me to marry him at my father Guest House hotel. When I told my dad he acted so cool and chill like nothing has happened. The fear build up in my mind Second fear was when I got lock up in toilet by maid she was annoyed with us about something which I don't recall being a very small at that time. I didn't know what happen but my heart told me the next door have spray something in the draining system that made 100 of cockroach come out from draining system into the toilet I was locked in the fear build up in my mind. That night I slept with one eye open cause of fearing the cockroach will come back.  There was many more fear I face that I didn't response to it but suppress all those fear in my mind.  Fear of darkness Fear of cockroach Fear of stranger Fear of failing in class Fear of embarrassing my family Fear of being my true self Fear of speaking up for mysel...

Sitting in the Cafe with family but feel the emptiness within as son enjoy his meal and father talk about food my mind wonder in the dream land where they is blissful peace and son is also in the dream land with me my attention is on him but not father for he isn't in the dream land with me. His energy is full of dark clouds so to be allowed in dream land of my mind I have to divine ✨️ guard 💂‍♂️ stand around me with divine ✨️ ♥️ of protection ✨️ incase of attack happen. The emptiness happens when don't have anyone to share my dreams with except with divine ✨️ and keep on alert at all time. Sometimes it definitely get tired to be on guard 💂‍♀️ 24/7.  Dreamland is definitely very safe and full of silence. Speak only when it's necessary.