Emotion and Feeling

Not being around people I am ok but once I get the taste of being close to someone, 

Why does this heart want to feel hug and physicals touch just to make sure that person is really in my life.

Then again my heart say to let go of all this illusion of connection cause am still trap in the cage of desire of this body consciousness.

Why do I need to be soul conscious?

So you don't become too attach to anyone and still live your life in peace without having desire when you are in body consciousness.

Is it wrong to just have someone I could feel they touch, hug and stroke of they hand on my face and getting the sense of they body smell just to feel they are for real in my life. 

Is not wrong at all to have those feeling but at what cost just be patience with yourself enjoy the touch, hug that you getting from your son.

I want to live alone so I don't have this desire of wanting someone cause already living with someone still make me feel like am living in pin and needles.

I want to live in the environment where I can be me with east without evil eye following me, controlling by family that I don't even feel safe. 

Want to spread my wings, spread loving message without being spy on, want to fly and go see my friends for real and just get a hug from them would definitely fulfill my heart. 

Virtual World is just full of words, frequency, energy but not really connection. 

When I talk to Divine I feel fulfilled and over joy but the moment the world start to get up with sunrise I want to escape into my shell again. 

Want to be surrounded by positive people who have same kind of thinking or just people who are in spiritual path too.

Just keep spreading love and the universe will do the rest.