Heart Growing

Men are like Rose 🌹  Women are like Lotus 💮 Men have to go through hardship of thorns before become a Rose Women have to go through dirt before become a Lotus  both beautiful in its own way can't compare.

Today Sadness visited 😞  Feeling all alone with the house full of people,  Happiness is within when doing something productive, When giving myself a break sadness comes, Go online to help guide I feel happy to help, When get too tired from texting take a break, Sadness visit again now got no where to hide, Sadness is sitting infront of me asking why don't u want to feel me. Me: I don't want to cry Sadness: You will feel better, you suppress alot of pain 💔  Me: when I cry my nose get block Sadness: how about we read books together ❤  Me: will u speak something to make me cry. Sadness: I can't promise u that  Me: Then u better not come near me Sadness is bring Anger now Me: I call divine ✨ 💫💖 help me remove this Sadness Anger ran away saw divine light ✨ 💫💖 Sadness is sitting and looking at me Me: smiling back to Sadness and not reacting.

Hurt Like a knife 🔪 stab into the heart Like a hammer 🔨 pounding the heart open Like arrow 🏹 throwing non-stop into the heart ❤  But this heart ❤ is so strong but its sad inside 💔 😢 😔  Heart is practicing for all the stone to be thrown at, and this wonderful heart never stop to build stronger protection.  Heart feel sad 😔 for many keep attacking 💔 non-stop when this heart never attack any heart ❤ only up lift those.  Am ready for this heart to be so big that who ever see it will not dare to come near with wrong intentions.

Thoughts: Don't u miss him Heart: No dear its too much pain Desire: I miss it  Heart: It's too much pain Desire: I want to feel the touch Thoughts: I will imagine it for u Heart: U can do it but I will block it Desire: I felt it but I felt more pain I dont want it Heart: wise decision  Thoughts: I just took the words I read and made up story that's why I trigger the Desire. Desire: why would u do that to us. Heart: it's all cool now am here for u all. My love for u all is still here. Thoughts: But why do I feel I want someone. Desire is sleeping.  Heart: Good thing Desire is sleeping Thoughts is up to no good again. 

The way we connected was a miracle but also the way we started wasn't what I intended.  But why does this heart ache for your touch and love.  I want to feel ur lips on my mind and then I don't want it too, scared that I would be trap just like am now.  Want to be love but with freedom not hold on. Love like air or dandelion or bird with wings not cut.  This kind of love ❤ would be so great not owning anyone but both want to give to each other willingly out of love of giving and sharing.  Thankyou for making me know there is such true love ❤ out there still. My heart ache for ur touch and kiss.  Love u my mystery twinflame. 

 Attachment Internal  - your ideas, - your beliefs, - your opinions or viewpoints, - your memories, - a certain way of thinking - a particular quality or specialty, - a particular power, - a particular habits - either positive or negative External - people, - objects, - your physical body, - your position or role in your family, society or in your professional field, - money, - places, - physical comforts, - the way you look or dress up or carry yourself or your physical personality in general, - a particular skill, - a particular interest or hobby like watching movies, online social networking, etc. - your routine or a certain way of working at home or at the workplace, - respect from others, - how people see you or behave with you or what they think of you   After observing my own Thoughts and attachment. I was still having desire of wanting to connect with people to feel I belong somewhere. Turn out many are facing they own negative thoughts that is full ...

Wish  Why do we wish  Cause we don't have those that's why we wish. Can wish be selfish and if it does. Does it give other sorrow or take advantage of others if it doesn't at all then can I make wish nothing more I want then to get hug from someone who would love me just for once.  I need no money, no luxury, no diamond, no materials things cause it doesn't give the warm feeling like the warm love of hug given by someone who love us dearly.  Wish for just one person to give warm hug, where I could feel safe and nothing more nothing less.  Why does the tear falls down  Why does it feel pain to have no one to hug Why does it feel tired from always being strong. After the pain is release I feel nothing more just emptiness and then the healing start to happen.  Straight seem to come back like miracle, stronger then before grow bigger then yesterday and new upgrades.