Expectation

When my mind have expectation and my heart was the first that feel pain and lungs feel tight can't breath properly chest hurt can feel pressure around my front and back as if it's burning up cause I was suppressing my feeling not let it come out freely, not crying or talk about it to the person I wanted to say. 

But the moment I talk to myself I realise the burden has lifted but the pain is still there, I want to scream let out all the pain, let go all of sorrow within and all the sadness. Nobody can heal me only me can do that I came to this earth alone and I have to go alone, so I need to face my sorrow, sadness and fear alone. Why should I expect from other when I can create those expectation of unlimited loving, understanding, caring, forgiveness and communicate within myself. 

I can do This.