Heart Growing

Thoughts Being with my thoughts sometime scares me cause sometime it's my friend and sometime it my enemy telling whispering all negative thoughts about the incident that happened today or in the past making up story in my mind and I notice it comes so offend that I wanted to feel It or act on it, but that's isn't my aim to live in depression so I started talking to it didn't help so I took a nap before sleeping thinking it's not me the thoughts is somebody else pain "am not in pain" somebody is in pain but wanted me to act on it but I am happy in my peaceful world no drama, role play, labels etc.  After the nap I got my answers "you are so wonderful 💕" my best friend my thoughts is working for me again the negative only comes when I choose to think about that incident it never worked against I just didn't practices mindfulness all the time also monitor my thoughts or what am about to think about.  You see everything It all depen...

Struggle    Since childhood I have witness many thing my parents thinks it's Struggle as for me I felt it was fun, adults sometime take it too seriously with life for them its about future as for me I felt its about now enjoy the moment at the fullest.           Walking on Rooftop it's dangerous but for us it was fun, exploring and adventures. Living in fear take aways the joy of everything u do. Follow the rules of society become important I notice the pattern wasn't right from the beginning during my childhood why everyone doing the same time over and over again and in the end all we did was for nothing, how? you ask:  • Money you earn - can't take with us when die • House u bought - can't take back someone else get its • Body also we leave behind • All that we learn from school we didn't use them in real life that much. But did notice that rules that we follow doesn't have Love in them. Only the words Dont C...

  Dancing 💃with your eye 😌close is the best feeling of all. And if dancing 💃 to Havana Song with nobody to see your dance move just let it all go with the flow, wild care free, touching 😏every part of my body making love movement with my body let it all go loose yourself to yourself no regret there. Making up your own move let it all go 😘and be awesome you. 💖 Biting your lips turning yourself on with the music playing in the background and with wild dance move nobody to check you out except yourself. I love me and my dance move. 

  Cold chill wonderful Rain you make me feel chill and heat at the same time, like you want to make love to me as I love you like anything beautiful, sparkling, Diamond and yet nobody can touch you cause you slip away or dry up Rain. I want to Dance with you Rain; the way out feel against my skin gives me goosebumps all over.  You are the best Lover then anyone I could ask for Rain. Love you soo much Rain. You calm me down when am angry or when I am sad or crying nobody knows cause you protect me with your Rain and when I am in need of someone touch just dancing with you make me forget everyone. I got you in my heart always forever Rain. My Sweet wonderful Rain. 

I Notice that when I am alone I would go ahead and talk to stranger I dont really care am shameful person haha 😅 but when I don't text anyone everyone wouldn't want to chat first, I notice that nobody text me haha 😅😆🙃😄 in the end alone again.  I fine it funny we all want company and when somebody step forward towards you to talk but nobody want to step forward 😅🤣😂. Is like if u want ice-cream 🍦🍧🍨you would rather want somebody to get but will never get it yourself. 

You don't need anyone to love you, I love you always my dearest Ann you are wonderfully made your heart is full of love to give and Your Angel shall guide you who to give and you will not get hurt. But for now give yourself love, time, self improvement and fine your passion and love your son unconditionally.  Love 💗 the way 💧 Water give you to drink without expectation Love 💗 the way 🌞 Sun shine give light to the earth and grow vegetation. Love 💗 the way 🌳 Tree give Oxygen. Love 💗 the way Wind give the feeling of freshness.  Love 💗 the way 🌏 Earth give wonderful fruits and vegetables. Love 💗 the way 🌠Space that remind you this is all an illusion of life.  Love 💗 the way 🌈 Rainbow give colors to your life. Love 💗 the way 🌕 Moon give is soft light and restful sleep.  Love 💗 the way 🌟 Star shine brightened up your night. Love 💗 the way 👶 new baby give without condition.  Nothing is permanent Let go of this attachment to role play, relationship, l...

Good Company can only be found with people who aren't family, relatives and who aren't attach to relationships.  We are all different we have different like, dislike, habits and addiction. If we love them unconditionally we wouldn't shame them of there addiction but would be kind with our words and actions. Unconditional love mean not to provoke wife infront of a child. Husband you may be attach to this role and the relationship thinking we are one when we never did.  My beautiful soul dont react to the soul who think he own you, he is naive that we are different. Don't give in to his provoke my dear beautiful heart you are always kind always be you. 

When my mind have expectation and my heart was the first that feel pain and lungs feel tight can't breath properly chest hurt can feel pressure around my front and back as if it's burning up cause I was suppressing my feeling not let it come out freely, not crying or talk about it to the person I wanted to say.  But the moment I talk to myself I realise the burden has lifted but the pain is still there, I want to scream let out all the pain, let go all of sorrow within and all the sadness. Nobody can heal me only me can do that I came to this earth alone and I have to go alone, so I need to face my sorrow, sadness and fear alone. Why should I expect from other when I can create those expectation of unlimited loving, understanding, caring, forgiveness and communicate within myself.  I can do This.

I want to be fade away forgotten by everyone and with that I want to experience the real connection within be lost in the world where no one remember me except the divine remember me, wind, earth, water, sun and moon. Cause am part of them and there are part of me. Everyone around me say am negative I don't see love, I don't see love I feel love and what everyone is doing it isn't love. Love is gentle, kind, compassion, soft spoken, sweet, understanding, listening, sharing and laughter.

Being alone made me love myself and see the truth of the surroundings, like seeing with fresh mindset also still feel trap cause of the cycle of life, but feel at peace and loved when am connected within but the moment I had to come out of inner connection the surroundings keep wanting to trap me. Then desire and wants creep back in and if let my mind go autopilot I realise that my surroundings is making me sad again. 😥 I want out mean I want to have deeper connection within 🧘‍♀️🧘🧘‍♂️more then connected with outside of me.  If the outside is something that does control you demand from you in the end still feel being used and having no one then outcome of outside world makes my mindset confuse it becomes my enemy telling me to be bitter and not be like divine love. My nature has become of giving but if not charge my inner strength I lose hope within myself. 

My love for you is growing and fading Sometime I can't live without you and someday I miss you dearly. I dont like to beg or demand for attention from pass experience have taught me well the outcome is only painful. So I love myself so much that I will let go of this pain by releasing my love to divine let him guide me instead. I surrender my love to you Divine Light  I will only let ur voice guide me. My heart belongs to you divine 💕. 

I love you my wildness,  Am going to keep you forever and we would go enjoy the world and explore the wildness together one day for sure, but for now am going to create different wildness of peace, compassion, caring, kindness and gentle. Dearest Wildness u will always be the part of me, and I love you dearly so please be patience with me once am ready we will go explore the world together for now let just enjoy in the moment for now. 

Surrounded by family but don't feel close to anyone nor do anyone understand or accept me, I have learn to Love and accept myself and never stop improving myself not to be accepted by people around me but for my own mental health and peace of mind.  Am Surrounded by fake, condition and full of expectation Love that make ones want to know more about this Love its all about truly. Love isn't something you can learn from school, university or from family unless you are lucky enough to get parent who give you unconditional love. I had to read from books, philosopher, bible, many other holy books and with one book that I had it with me for many year never bother to open or read it was right under my nose. "Pure Blise and Wild Love by Gill Edwards" This book became my guide line for everything work, ppl behaviour, Relationship, Love and Parenting.  After I read it I felt in Love with the concept of Unconditional Love so to really experience this theory I had to practice it ...

Independent Love Love that you create by self talk in front of the mirror. You are beautiful / handsome You are enough I Love You 😍 You have a Kind heart 💗 You Accept yourself the way you are 😌 You are Strong 💪 You Can make yourself Happy 😄 You Don't want anything from anyone You are Loved You see only Beauty around you You Fun to hang around with You are my Inspiration You Love everything around you 💟 You are grateful for this body 🙏 You love your body, mind and soul. 💖 You have awesome figure 👫 You can wear any clothes of your choice 👳 You are in control of your body 😃 You don't need other people permission to be you. 👏 You can decide for yourself what you want 👍 You can be yourself 😁 You can make yourself Laugh 😂 You don't need to change to make other happy 😏 You want to improve yourself for your mind, body and soul. 😇💭💬 You are calm soul You are happy person, I love hanging out by myself. Repeat these words in front of the mirror day and night to boos...

I will not give up on u my sweetheart ♥  You have wonderful heart you don't know it as yet You got beautiful mind You got Kind heart You got love of ocean in you You are angel for me always My love for you will keep on growing for you have biggest heart I have ever experience. Your forgiveness is even sweeter then any candy in the store. I am grateful and saying Thankyou Universe 🙏😊 for showing me how to be patience, peace of mind, self-loving and be ready when he is ready as well to get connected with me again. 

Future Everyone's School Everyone Volunteer to give a helping hand to create this school. Where everyone chip in without depending on money just material there have, help build with they knowledge.  Teachers in this school are Volunteer can be anyone no need of degree just your love of teaching can be ex: mother, father, friends, students, relatives and grandparents (no titles) If you are good at cooking can teach cooking If you are good at painting teach art class If you are good at reading tell stories If you are good at writing teach to writers  If you are good at building teach that If you are good at listening teach meditation  If you are good at sports can learn all kinds of sports you like. If you are good at cleaning teach us cleaning If you are good at taking care of others teach compassion Everyone can be a teacher as long as you are doing it out of Love.  Love is the Key to Connecting all of us together  A school that has everything in one no need to ...