Heart Growing

Sitting in the Cafe with family but feel the emptiness within as son enjoy his meal and father talk about food my mind wonder in the dream land where they is blissful peace and son is also in the dream land with me my attention is on him but not father for he isn't in the dream land with me. His energy is full of dark clouds so to be allowed in dream land of my mind I have to divine ✨️ guard 💂‍♂️ stand around me with divine ✨️ ♥️ of protection ✨️ incase of attack happen. The emptiness happens when don't have anyone to share my dreams with except with divine ✨️ and keep on alert at all time. Sometimes it definitely get tired to be on guard 💂‍♀️ 24/7.  Dreamland is definitely very safe and full of silence. Speak only when it's necessary. 

The way you shower ur love  At first I didn't know what it was Slowly the love u give and share it was something new to me I love to share love from beginning 💕 but also fear to show my full self  For wanting divine work to be done. Daily seeing your chat corner I want to share my life with you ❤️ 💕  The more I share the more I seem to feel comfortable near you. My heart feel calm and also same time to tease you. But I stop myself for I want it to go easy on myself with no expectations cause many past wound has been lesson wouldn't want to repeat them. I like your company for it bring out the child in me I can be myself more with you but not yet fully. Slow and steady is better then fast and furious 😏🥰 for I would definitely want this love connection to grow healthy, strong and stable.  Be patience with me for when I have share fully of myself to you and no expectations ✨️ then I would definitely know for sure this is all worth of all the effort i ask divine to g...

Touch me with grace Touch me with gentleness  Touch me softly Handle me carefully  Handle me with compassion  Make love to me  With ur soul, mind and body ✨️  Awaken all my senses with ur Touch  Awaken divine in me with ur divine ✨️ in you 

My love for you is true but fear comes in from being too attach to you. I slowly fade away hoping it would be easy on you I try my best not to think of you and slowly your memory was like a flower ✨️ that once was in my garden but now your seed took a flight to take root somewhere else.. my love for you is still strong even though we hardly talk. You are like a sweet memory that I want to admire from far hoping ✨️ 💕 you would fine someone much better then me. 😊  sending the blessing of love ❤️ to you my dearest love if you do get to read this then you 💕 know. You were the love like a movie that will never end in my thoughts but now it's time for the movie to end cause you starting the new journey with a new story of love of your own. 

Without You Your mom wouldn't smile or try to make u laugh, your dad wouldn't get to hold you and give u a gentle kiss on forehead, your family wouldn't celebrate your birthday seeing everything should be perfect just for you, you wouldn't get to go to school and make new friends, family wouldn't scold you cause they worry too much just want to make u happy by being strict with you, they wouldn't buy you new clothes to wear or learn to cook ur favorite meal, take u to park or visit place there would never ever visit alone and most of all they wouldn't leave everything just to think of you 24/7 You were put here on earth for a reason

Got wisdom lesson when washing dishes  Tea stain that got stuck on plastic material, ceramic cup and glass cup all needed hard scrub to take off the stain but what about the stain in our body with those tea many drink daily without thinking 🤔 definitely the colon is full of stain of tea in them many think colon is not clean cause of other stuff what about when we clog our draining pipe same goes for our colon everyone eat time a day not giving stomach rest to work on other part of the body keep on disgusting its like we keep the blunder on 24/7 and keep adding food into that blunder that's how our body get heat up without mindfulness.

Improve ourselves  When we keep improving ourselves for better we raise our standards higher too without knowing. People we meet when some quality in them doesn't fit with our habits or principles we don't feel like hangout with them. Our standards keep improving and nobody can catch up so we come to a stage that all are in different levels of improvement of the person capabilities so we all end up alone in our own levels. Is good to improve ourselves and help those who aren't yet at our levels with our understanding, accepting and kindness ✨️ with our determination ✨️ of help those to reach they level of capacity but not be attach to glory of what we did. Be a light house to all those who have lost they way ✨️ and we would never feel alone. ✨️