Heart Growing

 🌬 The Inner Geomancer Day 2: Inherited Patterns Some habits aren’t ours.  We didn’t choose them.  We absorbed them. From parents, partners, culture, survival.  We learned to delay, hoard, over-function, under-care.  We learned to ignore what’s heavy, normalize what’s loud, and call it “just how things are.” But today, we pause.  We notice.  We ask: Is this mine?  And if it’s not—do I want to keep it? For me, I noticed a pattern I inherited:  Delaying care.  Tidying only when forced.  Keeping things “just in case.”  It came from someone I love.  But love doesn’t mean I have to keep the habit. So I’m choosing differently.  Not with shame.  But with sovereignty. 🪞 What habit did you inherit that no longer serves you?  🧭 What belief about care or clutter did you absorb from someone else?  🌿 What would it feel like to release it—not with blame, but with clarity? You are the geomancer of your own soul....

 🌬 The Inner Geomancer Day 1: Noticing Begins Feng shui wasn’t invented—it was noticed.  Noticing is how we begin.  Noticing is how we reclaim. Today, I invite you to notice what feels heavy in your space.  Not what’s “wrong.” Not what’s “bad.”  Just… what’s loud. What’s too much. What’s lingering. For me, it was a shelf of boardgames.  They’ve brought joy, laughter, connection.  But when I passed by them on days I didn’t need them, they felt like clutter.  Not because they were wrong—  But because joy, when always on display, can become noise. So I moved them.  Not out of shame, but out of love.  They’re still here—out of sight in the cupboard, still reachable.  Because sometimes, seeing something daily can overwhelm us.  Out of sight but still reachable is the way. And if you live in a small space, with no extra cupboards or storage—  The invitation is even deeper.  Notice what you don’t use at all.  What...

  My Dream Relationship I want a relationship that values happiness over being right. I want a relationship that values kindness over pointing out who’s wrong. I want a relationship that values honesty over dishonesty. I want a relationship that chooses openness over hiding. I want a relationship that feels like home, not a battlefield. I want a relationship that feels equal, not like a pedestal. I want a relationship that observes with care, not to weaponize. I want a relationship where physical touch comes from love, not performance. I want a relationship that truly listens, not pretends to. I want a relationship that seeks bliss, not flaws. I want a relationship where I feel seen, not invisible. I want a relationship that feels safe, not unsafe. I want a relationship that plays in love, not in mind games. I want a relationship that teaches us to face fear, not feed it. I want a relationship that is soft, not walled off. I want a relationship where love exists—not one where I hav...

Your voice and your love for me melt my heart—as well as my body. My senses are intoxicated by your voice.   Your soft lips, speaking those words, felt like they were touching my skin ✨️   The heat and fire within 🔥 seem to have their own mind, wanting to erupt.   My body is hungry for your touch and your lips.

When you understand me I felt I am not alone anymore  When you understand me I felt like I can do anything  When you understand me I felt like am not invisible anymore  When you understand me I felt like I can do hard things. When you understand me I felt like being alone is more fun and exciting to enjoy own company. When you understand me I felt only short answer can satisfy me.

When you speak  It felt like cloud came down to lift me up. When you speak It felt like a dance I can't forget  When you speak It felt like I was hypnosis and I forgot who I am and where I am When you speak  I felt like I wanted to be that lips to speak those words. When you speak I felt like submitting myself to you

🌿 What I Choose to Ignore—And Why It Sets Me Free I face my fear—while ignoring the fear itself . I ignore to preserve peace. I ignore to stay clear. I ignore to remain available to solutions. For many years, I was ignored—dismissed, overlooked, misunderstood. But in that silence, I found something unexpected: Peace . The ignorance of others became a mirror, showing me what not to carry. So I chose the same kind of ignorance—not as bitterness, but as wisdom. I now ignore what doesn’t serve my peace. When the earth shook beneath me, I didn’t panic. I stayed alert, calm, and present—able to assist others who were overwhelmed. That clarity came from years of choosing what not to carry. I ignore: 🗣 Criticism that doesn’t serve growth 🤡 Mockery that seeks reaction 🧨 Foul language , transforming it into harmless meaning 🌪 Anger storms , responding with steady calm I ask when I don’t understand. I speak when I need to. I listen for tone, not just words. And I choose to inte...

My body is on fire 🔥 it's eating me up alive with desire of heat crave to touch and feel warm of the man touch. While there is none for I took responsibility to care for my heart and my heart wants a man who is willing to take accountability and is loving to me.  Sex is something sacred not something to play with but to constantly refuse a man that show a pinch of abuse in itself can be really hard for body when it's heated it seem like it has its own mind and cause unpredictable heat of fire 🔥 that try to test my temptation will I give in or submit. 

🎾 Opportunity and the Tennis Ball Sometimes, opportunity feels like a tennis ball flying our way. If we time it just right and hit it with intention, it opens doors to something meaningful.   But if that ball sails past and we chase it blindly, we might find ourselves tangled in a game we were never meant to play—especially when it’s already headed for the neighbor’s fence. Maybe that ball wasn’t ours to begin with.   Not every missed chance is a loss.   Some are cosmic redirections.   So instead of scrambling after every ball, I’m learning to stay grounded. Watching the court. Trusting the wind. Hitting the ones that are truly meant for me.

🎭 The Dance of Ideas Ideas arrive like whispers on an empty stage—ephemeral, fleeting, yet full of potential. When we act on them, they come alive, moving gracefully in the spotlight, even if no one is watching. At first, the seats remain empty, the applause silent. But the dance continues, fresh and evolving each day. Slowly, others begin to notice. Some stay, many pass by. Still, the performance never stops. But when we ignore those ideas—when we hesitate or seek permission—the stage stays dark. Unseen. Unfelt. The magic fades before it ever begins. The key is to act. When inspiration speaks, answer with action. Don’t wait for validation. Don’t share prematurely. Just move—create. Mistakes may come, but so does transformation. Not just in the world, but in the one who dares to dance.

✨ Imagination, Activated A dream begins in silence—soft as breath, wild as stars. It flickers in the mind like a candle in a storm, daring us to believe in what’s possible. But imagination alone is not the summit—it’s the first step on a climb that demands sweat, courage, and movement. You can sketch blueprints for a better world on napkins or sing visions to the sky—but until your hands shape them, they’re only whispers. To dream is divine. But to build? That’s what makes it real. A dream becomes truth the moment you act. When someone lives the values they dream about—when they walk their ideals, not just talk them—that’s when imagination becomes legacy.

Walking Through a Minefield of Other People’s Moods Have you ever felt like you’re constantly dodging emotional tripwires? I have. Especially within my own family, I’ve noticed how easy it is for someone’s inner frustration to get unloaded onto me—like I’m supposed to fix the feelings they refuse to face. There are patterns I’ve come to recognize when someone is irritated or overstimulated. They may not say “I’m annoyed,” but their behavior speaks volumes. It might look like: 1. 🤦🏽‍♀️Giving unsolicited instructions—telling me what not to do, with long-winded explanations I didn’t ask for. 2. 🤦🏽‍♀️Laying down rules—especially about what’s acceptable outside the front door. 3. 🤦🏽‍♀️Getting irritated by loud music—or any sound that adds to their mental overload. 4. 🤦🏽‍♀️Snapping at overlapping voices—as if the world is just too loud for their frayed nerves. 5. 🤦🏽‍♀️Complaining constantly— about little things that set them off. 6. 🤦🏽‍♀️Narrating their pain—from ache...

🧠💡 “The Forgotten Doctor Within” This morning, a sentence from Medical Medium struck me like lightning: “Doctor shopping.” A phrase that echoes a deeper epidemic—a world that’s outsourced healing. We’ve handed over our authority to doctors outside of us, seeking names and pills for symptoms, chasing labels that only comfort the mind while silencing the body. What happened to trusting the doctor within? The one that builds bones, beats the heart, carries our weight 24/7 without ever taking a vacation. Our society taught us to suppress symptoms—to fear gas, bloating, or acid reflux the moment they appear. Commercials shout: “Take this pill, escape the discomfort!” But discomfort isn’t the enemy. It’s our body talking. I’ve experienced this myself. When I eat dinner too late, my body gives me signals: bloating, acid, unease. That’s not a flaw—that’s feedback. When I listened, adjusted the timing, I noticed a change. My body was guiding me. It always has been. But here’s the ...

🌌 Breaking the Cycle: From Emotional Neglect to Self-Mastery Many men today struggle with compulsive behaviors like excessive pornography consumption and masturbation—not simply out of habit, but as a way to cope with inner pain. For many, this began in childhood, where their emotional world was overlooked or dismissed. They were boys who needed unconditional love, understanding, and safety—but received emotional neglect instead. Often, these boys were raised by parents who themselves never received the nurturing they needed. These parents were, in many ways, still children at heart—carrying unresolved trauma while raising the next generation. Parenting then became a burden rather than a conscious act of love. Instead of finding safety in their caregivers, children were forced to emotionally survive them. When emotions were met with blame, judgment, or silence, children learned to bury their feelings. Without safe outlets, they turned elsewhere—seeking warmth, escape, and love in unhe...

No One Is Coming to Clean Up Your Storm We all carry storms. But some people keep waiting for someone else to come mop up the wreckage. I’ve realized that the only true way to release yourself from your own pain... is to do something about it. Not manifest angels to lift you out, not sit in hope that a higher force will swoop in and tidy what’s messy inside. Faith may bring comfort, but healing demands motion. When people vent their pain without moving toward healing—when they displace their discomfort onto others—they stay stuck. They make their frustration your responsibility. But here’s the truth I’ve had to learn: If I didn’t create your emotional storm, I’m not the one who has to carry the umbrella. Those who try to impose their unresolved emotions on others will eventually have to face the truth—they’re responsible for their own cleanup. No scapegoats. No emotional babysitters. Just them, their feelings, and the choice to either work through them or keep dragging othe...

🔥 When the Fire Becomes the Master: How Sacred Attachments Fuel Silent Rage There comes a moment when the anger buried deep within us—quiet, forgotten, mistaken for peace—rises like a storm. And when it does, it’s not the person who triumphs. It’s the anger. It seizes control, not as a fleeting emotion, but as a force that takes over the entire being. We believe we are managing it, keeping it asleep beneath layers of control. But that’s the illusion. Because when rage finally breaks through, it doesn’t just cause damage—it consumes. The person becomes the vessel. The anger becomes the master. And often, the root it rises from is our deepest attachment⛓️⛓️‍💥—names we revere, titles we defend, places of worship we hold sacred⛓️⛓️‍💥. Anger⛓️😡 knows how to wrap itself in these things, using them like armor😈. It convinces us that destruction is justified, especially when done in the name of protection😈🛡. It turns love into collateral, and blinds us to the harm we bring to...

When Love Lets Go: A Soft Goodbye to What No Longer Matches There was a time I needed to belong so deeply, I shaped myself to fit the outlines of others. I clung to friendships tightly, fearing the silence between mismatched hearts. But growth teaches you how to listen—not just to others, but to yourself. Recently, a friend told me, “ We don’t have anything in common .” In the past, those words might’ve broken something inside me. But today, they didn’t hurt—they clarified. I didn’t take it personally. I saw it for what it was: honesty, not cruelty. Boundaries, not abandonment. I didn’t plead or prove my worth. I simply let them go—with peace, not resentment. Because I’ve come to honor truth more than attachment, and alignment more than validation. That moment showed me how far I’ve come. From people-pleasing to presence. From clinging to clarity. From fear to freedom. Letting go can be a soft kind of love—the kind that doesn’t need to hold someone close to care. And maybe,...

 Listening with Love vs. Listening as Duty Listening should be an act of connection, not just an obligation. True listening involves understanding boundaries, knowing when to engage, and ensuring conversations foster respect rather than control. It’s about more than hearing words—it’s about creating trust and honoring emotions. 🚧🚦 The Red Light & Green Light of Listening 🚦🚧 Red Light (Respecting Boundaries & Avoiding Harm) 🔴 Personal Requests & Sensitivity – When someone expresses a request, whether verbal or nonverbal, it’s a red light if they show discomfort or resistance. Honoring their boundaries means avoiding words or behaviors that trigger emotional distress. Example : If someone asks not to be spoken to in a critical tone, continuously ignoring this request can lead to emotional exhaustion instead of connection. 🔴 Parent-Child Boundaries – Children often struggle when their feelings are dismissed. If a child expresses distress about a parent’s behavior, ...

Often, when we notice behaviors in others that frustrate us, it's not just about them—it’s a reflection of something deeper within ourselves. Instead of immediately judging or pointing out their flaws, taking a step back to ask, Why does this trigger me? What do I wish they would change? Do I exhibit this same behavior? can lead to powerful insights. Through this process, we may realize that the very habits we dislike in others are ones we also struggle with. And if we have them, why should we be upset with someone else for the same thing? The truth is, trying to change others often leads nowhere—but working on ourselves does. When we focus on improving our own behaviors, we gain first-hand experience of how difficult growth can be. This, in turn, fosters patience and understanding when we see others still stuck in cycles of blame and hurt. Rather than engaging in frustration, we shift our perspective. We see their struggle for what it is—something we once battled ourselves. And wi...

🙊🙊🙊🙊🙊🙊🙊🙊🙊🙊🙊🙊🙊🙊 6 Reasons to stop Venting and start regulation, reflection, and forward movement 1. Venting Reinforce negative neural pathways, neural plasticity means that the more you talk about a problem in a negative way, the more you strengthen the brain circuits associated with that problem, and over time, you're hard-wiring yourself into a habit of helplessness. 2. Repeated Venting increases emotional reactivity, expressing anger or frustration repeatedly without resolution amplifies emotional intensity without ever releasing it. This keeps your nervous system on high alert, which means you're stressed out all the time, and it's because you're venting all the time.  3. Venting can damage relationships frequent venting is correlated with decreased relational satisfaction, it put emotional strain on the listener and they'll feel drained burdened or helpless especially when they can't fix anything give the people around you a break. 4. Venting i...

Being a wife is not a job Being a girlfriend is not a job Being a mother is not a job Being myself is not a job It's really isn't.  I just gotta be myself. Keep evolving myself. Was I contradicting myself? Do you contradict yourself?

Sometimes people leave even when they're alive. And you can't be with people who are dead.  Both situations leave an empty space, but they're totally different. Even if you end up never seeing someone again,  Simply knowing they're alive somewhere is enough.

The soul, pure and boundless, exists in a state of knowing, carrying the essence of home within itself. However, once it enters a physical body, it experiences yearning—a deep longing to reconnect with its true nature. The material world, with its comforts and distractions, presents illusions of fulfillment, creating a test for the soul’s ability to remember its truth. In this journey, the body consciousness and external influences attempt to pull the soul away, tempting it to forget. The Creator, the divine force overseeing this process, allows the soul to navigate confusion, testing its willpower and loyalty to truth. The challenge is not simply avoiding distractions but learning from them, recognizing them as steps in the path toward evolution. Souls are interconnected, forming a collective journey. Each lifetime offers lessons, and upon returning, the cycle of forgetting begins again. However, wisdom gained in past lives is not lost—it is carried forward through good de...

I never liked these sentences  "Can you do it?" "Wouldn't you feel tired?" "Would you have the stamina to go?" I request the person by saying that  Can you use these sentences only when I am in a wheelchair? The person replied, saying, "Noted."  Somehow I felt the person respond to be cold cause of our history that we were never close or connected, there was always distance between us, it was the person who put up the wall.  The person didn't acknowledge the word I use "wheelchair" it tell a lot about the person who wanted to connect who doesn't.  I am proud of myself while at the same time heart broken (two feeling at once)

We all make mistakes—whether it's watching something we regret or giving in to a habit we want to change. But who says we can’t release our pain through tears? The secret to strong willpower is knowing that after the rain comes the rainbow. 🌈 Whenever I make a mistake, I cry it out in a safe space, embracing the divine ✨ energy around me. After my tears fall, I feel strength within, whispering that I can move forward now. Can you imagine a world without rain? Your tears are like rain—why hold them in? Is it because of fear? Fear of being told you’re not strong, not a “real” man? 🤔 Why let anyone define what it means to be human? Suppressing tears is like rejecting yourself. Your body doesn’t lie—it carries the pain until it finds release. Holding emotions in only makes them surface in unexpected ways. Crying is not weakness; it is healing. And if anyone sees you crying and tries to shame you, ask them: "Can you imagine living in a place without rain?" 🌧

Growing up in school, I often found myself gazing out the window, daydreaming instead of focusing on lessons. The world outside seemed far more intriguing than the structured environment within four walls. My teachers constantly scolded me for not paying attention, but the truth was, I was paying attention—just not to what they expected. Then, when I entered the workforce, everything changed. I became fully engaged, eager to learn, improve, and embrace challenges. While others complained about the difficulties of their jobs, I thrived. I never understood why they dreaded their work, especially when compared to school, which had felt rigid and uninspiring. Traditional education often emphasizes memorization and structured understanding from books, but I discovered that I learn best through doing rather than simply remembering. And that made all the difference. Over time, I noticed a pattern: Many people, despite earning degrees and finishing school, lose their enthusiasm for learning wh...

In my interactions with others, I’ve noticed that many conversations tend to revolve around other people—their lives, their hardships, and often, their flaws. It’s fascinating to observe how discussions unfold: while the person who starts a conversation may seem to direct it, the true power lies with the listener, who ultimately decides how the topic evolves. I struggled to find my place in social groups because many discussions centered on complaints, gossip, or comparisons. These topics felt draining rather than enriching. My mind craved conversations about ideas, innovations, and personal growth—things that inspire and uplift. But in most settings, negativity seemed to dominate. It hurt deeply, so I found solace in books and daydreams, escaping into worlds where knowledge and discovery mattered more than idle talk. Over time, I realized that the topics people choose to discuss reveal a lot about their interests and, ultimately, their priorities. Some talk about others as if they wer...

When night come I crave for your touch, I don't know where you are and who you are. My body seems to know who it wants, as I tame my body the more it rebellion and when I can't tame it anymore it seem wild energy inside of me want you so badly that it's like wild wolf. It visit only few nights with strong urges and then arouse without being touch however body react like it's being touch and can't hold it back anymore. Brain started to imagine your lips, your touch and wild sexual night. How thirsty am I in this night without you who ever you are. 

Deception  Deception is in reaction of information share in online post = install fast reaction to pull people to take interest of what they are missing out. To promote one own channel is to decept viewers into believing something isn't real reaction on the post.  I notice how my own channel doesn't receive fast reaction and how other channel receive many reaction however when I discover and notice when I made a post in a channel where it automatically show fast reaction it got me thinking, (it didn't wanted me to think it say forget about this just post) and then after many month I want to think about it, notice and want to find out the truth. It's was a way to decept people into believing they post is very interesting and popular. Paid to get fast reaction by bots not human.  While those who didn't choose Deception is posting without receiving fast reaction seem to be unpopular channel base on the viewer point of views.  It does make me think do I want...

  Thoughts on Giving and Receiving Advice Advice rooted in blame often creates unnecessary conflict. It’s more effective to approach guidance with understanding and focus on collaboration rather than assigning fault. Reliable advice comes from logical thinking and careful observation. By considering potential outcomes and consequences, advice can be both practical and forward-looking. Advice driven by pain tends to perpetuate pain. For guidance to truly help, it should come from a place of healing and compassion, not unresolved hurt or reactive emotions. Before acting on advice, take the time to observe and evaluate the perspectives offered. Analyze the possible outcomes—both pros and cons. Remember, once advice is followed, there’s no refund or reversal. Every individual must take full responsibility for the choices and actions they make.

Hugs  Hug from family, relatives seem like normal and exchange of energy, not knowing what I am getting from that hug, while knowing that to be alert and mindful of all the feelings that arise and self-check that some of those feelings aren't mine to begin with.  Warm hugs are totally different from a normal hug. Warm hugs are full of love, pure thought, pure love with feelings added in them.  Normal hugs are full of empty feelings, no thoughts or full of random thoughts of worries, didn't put intention into it.  Observe each hug and what you feel and notice what feeling you were having before the hug you received you will see the differences.  I Crave Men warm hug though they body temperature is full of heat while I keep checking whose tough is warm and cold. Apparently my mom is full of warm as she is using masculine energy more then feminine energy. She is the leader of the house so automatically the body change its temperature.  When women body is balan...

Breaking the Cycle of Harmful Beauty Advertising Dear Consumers, Have you noticed how some advertisements seem to teach us to hate our own natural features, creating insecurities we didn’t have before? Here’s a real-life example: One day, I came across a beauty product advertisement that showed a group of people bullying someone with an oily face. A model with a “fresh, oil-free” complexion then appeared, promoting a product as the ultimate solution to oily skin. This ad planted the idea that oily skin was a flaw, something to be ashamed of. It even taught me to dislike my own face. But the very next day, another advertisement flipped the narrative. This time, someone with a dry face was being bullied. A model with a “healthy, glowing oily” complexion showed up, promoting a product as the ideal solution to dry skin. It was baffling to see how both oily and dry skin were portrayed as flaws—depending on the product being sold. As these advertisements kept popping up, I realized they were...

 The Overload of Information: A Food for Thought In today’s world, information is everywhere—on our phones, computers, TV screens, and even conversations. But have you ever thought about how we consume information? Let’s compare it to food. When we eat too much, our bodies struggle to digest and absorb the nutrients. Excess food often becomes fat, stored without serving any immediate benefit. Now, think of information in the same way. While a healthy amount—like three balanced meals a day—can nourish the mind, we’re actually consuming information thousands of times a day. This constant intake can overwhelm our mental “digestive system,” leaving no time to process or benefit from what we learn. In the end, unused information, just like unused food, sits idle. It becomes mental clutter instead of inspiration or wisdom. This highlights the importance of mindful consumption: taking time to reflect and absorb what truly matters, rather than being bombarded by endless facts, news, or med...