Heart Growing

Wish  Why do we wish  Cause we don't have those that's why we wish. Can wish be selfish and if it does. Does it give other sorrow or take advantage of others if it doesn't at all then can I make wish nothing more I want then to get hug from someone who would love me just for once.  I need no money, no luxury, no diamond, no materials things cause it doesn't give the warm feeling like the warm love of hug given by someone who love us dearly.  Wish for just one person to give warm hug, where I could feel safe and nothing more nothing less.  Why does the tear falls down  Why does it feel pain to have no one to hug Why does it feel tired from always being strong. After the pain is release I feel nothing more just emptiness and then the healing start to happen.  Straight seem to come back like miracle, stronger then before grow bigger then yesterday and new upgrades.

How does it feel  Being touch by a men who u fine attracted too Being kiss on the lips who has given u goosebumps without a touch on the lips Why does the tear flow down so easily with joy or pain don't know 🤔  The tear is warm  But tear of God love is cool full of joy Why does the body react so fast to such attraction. Open heart talk can do all this then why does it feel hurt as well. Open heart talk to God I feel high and long goosebumps cool tears of joy but no pain in the heart.  Love is weird I can't seem to understand its concept. 

They help me by being fake They help me by blaming me for they sorrow They help me by not loving me They help me by mentally abuse me They help me by hurting more  They help me by disrespecting They help me by not accepting me They help me to brake free from this trap of illusion world.  They help me to turn to divine I am grateful for all the lesson 🙏  That's why now I have taken divine as my companion and no one else.

Divine take my tears  Turn them into waterfall from spring that will norish the planets.  Turn the tears to joy of love for the people who need water to drink. Turn the tears into soft rain 🌧 that need awaken the dry land.  Turn the tears into snow ❄ let it freeze in the air and when it fall it spark like diamonds. Turn this sadness tears into something magical that will benefit many.  Thankyou my dearest Divine for always being at my side when I needed you the most. I have no one I could Turn to cause I would definitely need a warm hug but I got only wind with me here since the sun has gone down. 

Remember this day You were put down by family word questioning your parenting method, teaching child to help himself to take responsibility of his own doing was ur way of teaching. You were teaching the right things 👏 Divine like the way you have raise his son. Remember the child u got is never your is divine son alone you are just his teacher.  When u have power over yourself like behaviour, thoughts, action, words and personality. Nobody can take this power from you and shake you or push u down. Self discipline.